Sunday, July 25, 2010

I'm off lads!

See you all in 21 days!
I hope you're all well when I come back and lalala.
Grand so. We're all grand? Yeah. Grand.

á Ailish, á Chara.

I'm scared. D:

But yeah, I'll catch up with you all when I get back. I'ma gonna attempt to keep a diary for these three weeks. Oh Gosh, I'm so excited.
If you wanna hear from me, follow me on Twitter. I can use it by text, so I can't see replies or anything. But still, if you want to see my frantic "i'm fucked" messages, you can! :)
Talk to you all later!


Thursday, July 22, 2010

Summer, so far.

Hi there! This is a super-quick photo blog of my antics for the past month and a half. I'll probably do another one once summer is over.

Caroline (hereby known as Frenchie) and I. How romantic. I'm such a fucking ginger and I don't even know it.

I just see this photo and laugh. 1) because it was a funny and happy day, and 2) because I think my expression is priceless. Hello?

This was a funny day too. And I just think this photo is pretty :D

DJ Harry Potter.. in the mix. All my make-up had managed to come off my face. What joy!

Happy Birthday Jess!


Deer! Baaahh! They all ran (away from us) just after this photo was taken. So we legged it. I thought I was gonna die. You wouldn't want a smack of those antlers.

Best Day Ever! :) Most fun I've had in a long while! Oh and by the way, Catzy isn't gay.. She just came as support too!

Are ya well? Cos you're lookin well.

Yeah, so I met this Roman guy at a party I went to. You know, he was wearing a toga.

Poor Tobes had a stroke :( But he's doing okay now! He's 11 years old and now walks around like a drunkard.. But he's walking and that's the main thing!

Oh and thank you so so so so so much for the 50 followers. I never thought I'd make it this far ever. What can I do to repay you all? :)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

I've been tagged!

The Honesty Award
-from Eleanor Roscuro

Share one thing that nobody knows about you.
Nobody knows about me.. I uhm.. I have a twitter! (I rarely use it, but I'm trying to get back in the habit!) Follow me, would you?

What is your biggest regret in life?

Letting you go. And I can't even tell you.

What would you do with a thousand dollars?
I'd go to France/New York. Probably New York. Though, that thousand would only be a fraction of what it would cost.

If you could go back in time, would you still be with the person you are with right now?
If I went back in time, no not at all. I wouldn't go back in time though, I like it the way it is, but if I were to, this would never have happened. I must laugh at the situations I put myself in.

What do you like or dislike about my (the tagger's) blog page?

Why would someone bitch about someone they'd been tagged by.. I like however, that she was my second follower ever! And reminds me of it regularly! <3

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Father Ted.

Possibly one of the greatest shows... Ever! It's just plain hilarious. Too bad Dermot Morgan died and they stopped making it. -_-
Anyway, here are some of my favourite clips, I've been watching it a lot lately, I got a lend of the boxset.

There is always time for a nice cup of tea! Sure didn't our Lord himself on the cross pause for a nice cup of tea before giving himself up for the world?

"It's not the morning"

"I wouldn't know Ted, ya big bollocks."


"How about Ted? That's a good name for a rabbit"

"I stand corrected"

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Ah right so. We're down to 9 days lads, that's single figures. And, to be quite honest, I'm fecked sure, I've nothing packed, or bought for this "holiday".
I realised, that in my last post (due to the fact that almost every comment had "where are you going?" or something along those lines, in it) that I neglected to say where I am going. And this (taken from Wikipedia) is what I have in store for me for 21 days.

Gaeltacht is the Irish language word meaning an Irish-speaking region. In Ireland, The Gaeltacht, or An Ghaeltacht, refers individually to any, or collectively to all, of the districts where the government recognizes that the Irish language is the predominant language, that is, the vernacular spoken at home. These districts were first officially recognised during the early years of the Irish Free State, after the Gaelic Revival, as part of government policy to restore the Irish language.

So basically, a bunch of teens looking to improve their Irish for the good old Leaving Cert and the Junior Cert all pop down to the Gaeltacht areas for three weeks and go to classes and céilís and what not. Sounds like great craic. Only problem is, I'm brutal at Irish. Like really really really bad! Oh well, I'm looking forward to the three weeks of freedom.
This song sums it up, exactly as I feel.
Heathers- Remember When

Oh, and also, this is the first time I've managed to work out how to post videos on my blog. Ah.

Anyway, I'm off for the moment, I'll be on later to do a birra reading of your blogs and whatnot. How're you doing? And hello? 48 followers.. Thanks you guys *blushes* you've no idea how grateful I am!

I have to think of some sort of celebration for the 50th follower.. IF there is one! Any ideas?

Monday, July 12, 2010

Fourty FIVE *dances* and, btw, I'm sorry!

After my last post, I'll bet most of you are thinking, "oh shit.. This is going to be long". But no, we're grand sure. This is a oh my god, 45 followers post. And I know I say this with every single one, but I really never expected to get this amount. This is five away from half way to one hundred. And that is a LOT. In my books anyway.

I also want to apologise for that last post. I was ever-so-slightly hormonal (as if you couldn't tell) and felt like ranting my heart out to people who just weren't there.. And subsequently crying my eyes out later on! But thanks for all your comments, and I spent today trying (in vain) to catch up on all your blogs.. My God, you've all written a lot since I've been gone!

Also, I think it's time to drop another bombshell.

*whispers* in thirteen days (ohmygod) I will be gone for three weeks.


Saturday, July 10, 2010

Basically, my life story.

Well not really..

I haven't written in a while (Frenchie).. And I think I might do it today. So I was reading this post on Gabrielle's blog, where she talks about a boy she likes, and the story reminds me so much of a boy I liked. A long long time ago!

(Now that I've written it, I've realised the stories aren't very similar. Also, I hadn't intended for this to be so deep. haahahhah. By the way, I WILL BE BACK TO NORMAL BY THURSDAY. With a super good post.)

Okay, so let's drag ourselves back to the 24th of March four years ago. I was at my best friend Ash's birthday party. There was a boy there with dark hair, who brought her lemons as a birthday present. I knew this was it. This was Love. There was also a ginger there too. And we had a good time, played monopoly, yadayadayada.. Wait, I just realised I'm going to have to change his name.. Just in case. Okay, we'll call him Heathcliff, seeing as it's obviously fake. Anyway.

So we left Ash's 13th birthday party and that was it. For now. My friend.. Catherine Earnshaw started to talk to Gingey, they got on really really well. I was jealous of her, that I didn't live right next door to them. So I started to make excuses to get closer to them. I would go over to her house more often, don't get me wrong, Catherine Earnshaw and I were great friends, and still are. (Oh and by the way, this isn't Catzy.. I hadn't even met her yet). But anyway, gradually we got closer. And introduced to more of their friends. And so a group formed. Which we called the "Posse" (it works with the area they live). We spent the entire summer of '07 together, wow, I was in love with Heathcliff.. We would flirt, spend the days together, we had our songs, our jokes... It was amazing. Life carries on. I "went out with" a boy around Halloween of that year, because I was starting to realise that maybe Heathcliff didn't like me in that way (actually I've a funny story about that boy for later). Maybe I went out with him to make Heathcliff jealous. I don't know.

But anyway, we broke up after a while and then, after New Year, another boy joined... Who, for the sake of this, we shall call Gremlin. No reason or anything.. *cough* Anyway, this Gremlin caused a rift in our tightly knit group. See, he liked a friend of mine, Jess. But she rejected him, even though she liked him, she wasn't ready or something. And so he decides to go out with Catherine Earnshaw. They lasted a week. After they broke up, Catherine realised she loved him, and this is where shit hit the fan.. Cos what does the good old Gremlin do? Only ask out Catherine's best friend, and mine and Jess'. Oh and by the way, Jess's sister died near Christmas and my mam got diagnosed with cancer in March/April time.

So Poser decides to accept him, even though she knows Catherine still loved him (can I clarify that Catherine knew him quite a while beforehand?). So what happens next? Oh nothing only Gremlin cheats on Poser with Catherine Earnshaw. Jess and I find out, and Gremlin begs us to tell Poser, so we do. This news splits the group. Why? Well, turns out that Gremlin had also been sexting a few girls. Yet Poser takes him back. Even to this day, it angers me. Jess and I pack up and leave. Heathcliff blames us for it, even though Gremlin had asked Jess to do it (they were best friends then) and yadayadayada. Basically we can fill this part (summer 08) in with two words "TEEN ANGST". I went through a terrible time (this is what I was talking about in that post about God). I remember babysitting, and sitting downstairs while the kid was upstairs and CRYING and CRYING and CRYING. I cried myself to sleep. I self-harmed. And the thing is, only Jess knew. No one else, just her. I know now, it was wrong of me to do that but Christ at the time, there was nothing else. I felt like everyone hated me, and in truth, they did. Taylor Swift is right, fifteen is the age when everything changes. I couldn't help hurting myself, I felt like I had caused everything. I wished I could make it so Jess got to say goodbye to her sister, I wished she never had to say goodbye. I wished I could cure my mam. I wished Heathcliff would love me. I wished for everything to work out and it hurt so much, because each one I needed so badly. It wasn't like now "I wish they'd ask me out".. I needed his love. And it was my fault he didn't love me, it had to be. There was something about me that, to him, made me unlovable. I wanted to spend my life with him. And I know fifteen isn't the age to decided this, but it's what I wanted.

Anyway, due to another friend, things were smoothed over. Eventually. It took a long time, and I will never forget it. And for the most part, things went back to normal. Then something terrible happened. Jess and I fell out. This killed me. I wanted to be her friend, desperately. But she was in a different place to me. And I needed so badly to let the past go. I had to, I wasn't able for it. I know it makes me sound like a bad friend, and maybe I am. Wait, I AM. I couldn't shoulder her problems and mine. I started to hang out with Catherine Earnshaw more. And this brings us up to last summer. So Heathcliff decides let's drop a bombshell..
"I'm gay"

I didn't know what to do. I mean, believe me, be as gay as a hatter, I don't care, honestly.. But please.. Not you. I needed you to love me. I needed you.

Luckily I went away with the family for a while that summer. We went back to school this year, and now things are finally getting back to normal and I'm getting over it. Kinda. Well, the thing is, I wasted what, 3/4 years of my life on him? You don't get over that easily.

Anyway, how are YOU today?

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Cosmic Lovin'

Cosmic Love.

I would like to remember this moment forever.

Thank you for the 41 followers, and sorry for being neglectful :(
But really, thank you so so so much, I never expected this.

A lot of unexpected things have happened.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

A Series of Dramatic Facebook Statuses.

Names have been changed. Clearly.

Oh joy. I've done that thing where you put your phone on silent. And lose it.
Friend 1 and Friend 2 like this.

Wednesday at 7:27pm ·
Friend 3:
did you find it?
Wednesday 8:00pm

Yes I have been crawling around the house in the dark praying for the light of my phone. Have I found it? No I have not.
Wednesday at 10:33pm
Friend 3, Friend 4 and Friend 5 like this.
Friend 3:
oh my god epic. this is the most dramatic series of statuses ever
Thursday at 4:00pm · You like this.


Wednesday at 11:48pm
Friend 6 likes this.
Friend 7:
U sound happy for what you found. Good stuff :D
Wednesday at 11:50pm
My phone. It's been missing since this morning hahahah
Wednesday at 11:52pm
Friend 7:
Haha. Well u have it back now :D
Wednesday at 11:55pm
Friend 8:
Congrats :D
Thursday at 12:47am ·
Friend 9:
proud of you!
Thursday at 11:36am ·

Btw, I'll have time tonight to catch up with everyone's blogs!!
And I found my phone between my MATTRESS and the actual bed. WTF.