I woke up this morning, dying of some illness, but that's all irrelevant to the post. Anyway, in the middle of the night, as I couldn't sleep I was reading John Green's book Paper Towns. And there was a paragraph in it that struck me as profound. And I haven't been able to stop thinking about it.

We're living in the future.

What we do now is in preparation for the future. I'm going to school, I'm trying to do well.. In order to go to college and to get a good job, to earn money, to buy a nice house, to raise a family there, so my children grow up well, go to college get good jobs.. And the cycle goes on.. And on.. And on..

And what happens then? It's just struck me that I need to stop doing this. I know, you can say I'm only 17. But is it not better that I've realised this now, in stead of missing out on the prime of my youth? I need to stop working, and start having more fun. Obviously one needs to do work, and I do plan on going to college, not to get a good job, but because I want to.

I won't tell my parents this, because they'll accuse me of being lazy and just not wanting to work, but school is no longer my priority. Life is.

What if I die tomorrow? I've a list of 19 things I want to do, and I'll never get to do them. I'm taking the bull by it's horns from now on. Like, obviously some of the things I want to do are going to take a while (ie. become fluent in French) so if I died tomorrow I'd never get to do that anyway.

This post is so unstructured, but that's the way it is.