Films Yo

So day two of my summer went something like this. I woke up, walked the dogs, called my friend. I waited around for the internet man to fix the broadband (which he did, I hope). I watched two films, The Good Girl and Easy A. Both really, really good films. Easy A is so funny, I can't believe there was a time in my life when I hadn't seen it. And The Good Girl is.. sad. Wow. Jennifer Aniston, well played. I'm in the middle of my third film now, The Life Aquatic With Steve Zissou. I don't know about you guys, but I really think I should get myself a job. I've been trying really hard to get one but took a break over the exam period (also known as The Time When My Life Fell Apart). I'll get back on that again. Also, I'm still working on my super-long updatey kinda post. I'm at about a month and a half ago now, so we're getting there!

My little sister is a bit of a nutjob. Today, she felt the need to conduct a "survey" of our house and find out who of the four children helped the most around the house and also who had the tidiest room. She told me I was guaranteed to win at least one of them, because that was the only way to be fair about it. She gave each of us a sheet of paper and told us to tick off the right answers. I got no votes for either of them. She got all votes except one, which my brother got. Somehow she managed to win both categories and I came second place in "helps the most around the house", which was nice considering my total lack of votes.

Two post from me in the one year, wow!

If I were to explain every thing that has happened in the past year, I would never get this post done. So I'm going to save that post and write it as a Word Doc and then post it up when I get it done. It's not that this year was particularly eventful (well..) it's that I left it so long to post. So yes, here I am. My exams are over and my summer is very long. I'm finding it hard to get a job so in the meantime (which is probably going to be the entire summer), I'm actually going to write a novel. Or at least start writing a novel. A while ago, I was depressed. I went to counselling and things changed in my life that really needed to (I'll explain in my "update" post) and now I'm back on track. But during this really dark period of my life, I was inspired by a story. I think the novel is going to be based on the writing technique rather than the story, but it's in my head right now. I've got a lot of planning done, so that's good. I'm not going to post about it just yet though, until we're further along. I have a plan to do at least two hours of writing for it a day (don't break the chain), but this week we're on planning. My exams were terrible, but I don't think I failed any of my modules which is probably the main thing. What can you do anyway. So yes, the return of blogging, let's have ya! -Ailish

*cough* there's an awful lot of dust in here..

Eh, hi. I'll cut to the chase. Yes I have been gone since last year. In the past year I have done many, many things and I think I will blog about them, but just not right yet. I'm busy for the next 12 days (exams, yeah I know), but after that I will start this again. Is that okay? As a summary since this time last year, I fell in love, fell out with my friends, started college, made some new friends, cemented relationships with old ones, got my heart broken in so many ways, broke hearts and did very little college work. Sneak preview of what is to come in terms of my blog. I wish I had a sneak preview of the next year, but we can't all be lucky. Anyway, hope you're all wonderful. PS: Here are some links in case you're interested http://cocacolacaliforniafreeze.tumblr.com/ http://www.youtube.com/user/cocacolacalifornia (I only recently started making videos, so yeah) - Ailish

Huh. It's been a while.

Yeah, so incase you didn't realise, I'm in 6th year now.. My final year at school. So I'm pretty busy with endless amounts of homework and hours of "study". I've got my exams in 12 days, I'm totally unprepared for the big old Leaving Cert. I don't even know what I want to do in college. But that's a whole other kettle of fish.I
I graduated last night, not that it means anything really over here in Ireland. It was pretty emotional though. Like to think some of the (well three) girls I'd been in school with since I was 4 years old. Right up to now. I've shared 14 years of my life with them and now it's just over. We went out to a pub with the teachers after.. It was pretty fun and a nice way to end the year. Anyway.. You won't be hearing from me til the end of June.. But sorry I've been MIA.

I'll talk to you all later..

Hey stranger.

"Might be holding your hand, but I'm holding it loose. Got to talk then we choke, it's like our necks in a noose."

- Kickstarts by The Example.

I think the above sums up my current status on blogger. I'm never on, I don't read many other blogs any more, I don't post. I've just lost touch since I went away in summer.

However.. I have started a tumblr. I like it there. I can post short posts, and quotes (which I have a new obsession with now) and pictures. I like it. If you care to follow me, here is the link. http://cocacolacaliforniafreeze.tumblr.com/

I'll probably come back on here from time to time.. But still. Oh, and if you follow me on tumblr, I'll follow you back! :)

Taking the Bull By the Horns.

Today I told a boy something I should've told him three months ago. I told him that I loved him from the very first day.

He told me he's been planning to break up with me for a week.

The thing is though, that's why I said it. I knew I couldn't let this go til I told him. I knew something was up. I knew it was going to happen. I said to my best friend on the phone last night "some one's going to get dumped tomorrow". He said "No, no, usually when I break up with a girl we get closer, almost to make up for it". I told him, "Well, we'll see, won't we?".
We did.

I've come to realise, the rejection didn't hurt. I can't change his feelings. Although I don't think it was very nice of him to turn around and say "Well yeah, I've only ever sorta like you.." especially considering I let HIM pursue, not the other way around. He can't go back on that argument, I wouldn't have the balls to ask someone out. His feelings though, "are neither right nor wrong, they simply are".

Some parts of me are happy it's turned out this way, however lonely I feel right now.


On a side note, what kinda knob lets a girl go home from town on her own, late at night, the night before Hallowe'en, doesn't even bother to help her find her friends but then only texts her when he's on the way back from a club "oh sorry for blah blah blah" but not "oh did you get home okay?". He doesn't know that I did find my friends, or that I did get home okay. People sometimes.